(last time)
caught in his eyes
the look that kills
us first born sons
from the inside
lost in strength
begging for change
to drain our blood
of silent suffering
lied many deaths
to cry one more
birth and to be
worse at the end
no longer
hold the pain
but let go
and feel life
for him and I
(release)
mourning shadow
stacking rocks
over my body
his voice like sand
counting down
heavier with each grain
burning up flesh
plead with the fire
to clean or to destroy
on the last gasp
release the grip
so will the shadow
peace within
see the ultimate
in the distance
(really here)
a seed
takes root in my chest
the universe
trust
grow a good tree
leaning to the sky
create
as the sun bursts
in aquarius
love
be really here
for it all
now
(lunar eclipse)
seen father
and son away
the same moon
shared their faith
of strength and pain
but now
pleading a new moon
to deal different cards
building a henge
where she dances
(jizo)
first it was relief
from a fate
couldn’t escape
second it was fate
in full circle
by a sad new dawn
the burden of two
tiny coats and hats
begging jizo for relief
(river takes)
drove his knife through the box
to free the ashes of a great life
the blade touched him
again and again
rowed the boat to the middle
of the river bed
and laid him to rest
in peace flowing
(on mission)
tears and words
chasing ghosts
away
taste of a cigarette
like the ones we smoked
behind the school hiding
carefree again
painting the sidewalk
with the blue of my eyes
lost fear
(again)
offer my body
she opens her thighs
to be absorbed
we breathe together
our bodies
share the same heat
found my well
the promise
complete again
(still)
sucking on my thumb
my heartbeat
rocked me to sleep
illusions of a world
once still
inside you
floating in my cave
ancient
signs on the wall
resonating a promise
eternal message
drummed by your heart
you didn’t tell me
still understood
felt it in my stomach
(mother)
you ate
all the strawberries
and left
but dad stayed
and fed me
with two spoons
never learned to miss you
knew the strawberries
spoiled your milk
(my giants)
first grandpa cried
then dad too
when they understood
and my world collapsed
under the weight of the tears
of my giants
just grabbed their pants
and held them
crying
(dad)
when he left I had to find a place
with sense and peace
where we will meet again
when it’s my time to leave
I did
no cure for the void though
(sonya)
see you again
as if we have met before
a precious moment
the reason for the journey
on the road going in circles
